(:

miracle happens.

thank God who heard me crying.

thank my lucky star being by my side.

lastly..

thank the gapbuster who did not penalise me n fail me badly.

at least i can smile abit more.

(:

rumours are scary.

its difficult not to listen.

once u listen.

its difficult not to believe.

heard tat laichoon getting promoted n transferring out soon.

VERY soon.

who is not sad abt it?

ya..

i noe im not the one taking over her.

i noe where i stand.

its effie obviously.

hais!

y i always will have this awful feeling.

seeing ppl behind me getting promoted first.

fuck right?

>.<

as i said i noe where i stand.

im totally ok with her getting promoted.

i admit i said i dont want her being my 1st asst.

i admit i told laichoon to bring me where ever she's gg.

but i thnk again n again n again for a long time.

now..

i want stay where i am.

even though effie is my 1st asst.

if i feel so awful.

how abt herman?

i bet he feel much more worse den me.

he even off his hp aft we broke out the rumours to him!

i noe if i stay where i am i cant see anything bright soon.

i noe if i go with laichoon i might get wat i want sooner.

i decide to stay on for herman.

or either laichoon take herman with her instead.

think it will be better for everyone of us.

my awful feeling will be over very fast de.

i will feel awful its just cos i dont want to face the fact.